at my apartment, or the times we would play video games or watch anime together all day. i remembered the pain that ive been ignoring for the past week, it literally came flooding back so quickly.
  i remembered my initial plan for coming here. testing out the waters for awhile until the end of october. and if i decided life was still worth living, i would keep going, but if i was still as tired as i am right now, maybe i wouldnt push it anymore.
  i walked home after getting off of the bus on 7th. my eyes darted to the metro line in the middle of the street, right next to my apartment complex. there was a millisecond of an idea related to those train tracks. but i kept walking past it, and i got to my apartment door safely.
  it exhausts me to know that tomorrow im going to have to wake up early and do it all over again, except with less back and forth in the middle of the day. all i have to do is go to school in the morning and stay until i have to go home later that evening. it shouldnt be too bad -- until