things have been pretty lonely today

published november 16, 2019

but i think i'm going to have to get used to it!
currently, my cat is licking my shoulder blades (probably because i just put coconut lotion on) and i'm settling into bed to keep working on college essays. there are so many and it's really scary how little time i have left. since i'm going to hawaii with dad, i have to submit my applications by friday night, which means my essays should be done thursday night, which means even cracking out one essay a day won't be enough time.
it's not like i've procrastinated either, i just can't think of what to say. now with █████ basically gone, no one can really proofread my essays
and it's harder and harder to write since i've been in such a bad mood

though. right after this entry, i swear i'll be working on my essays.

i'll even try to write two.
anyway, today was pretty uneventful and lonely. the loneliness was actually kind of fine though, it's just odd to have no one message me or talk to me at all. i did go to val's bonfire earlier though, and i felt partially disassociated with them all but at least i ate pretty good. it was a fun evening honestly.

i'm off to write essays now. thanks for reading.

ash