• name : you may hear my personal friends call me ash, but if we don't know each other well enough, please call me ari!


• pronouns : she/her, it/its. although i am nonbinary, please refrain from using they/them on me, and masculine terms. i also prefer no honorifics, but "ms." is okay if necessary!


• birthday : december 30 (♑︎ sun, ♈︎ moon, ♐︎ rising.) i prefer to keep my exact age private, but i am an adult. i am not comfortable being friends with minors, nor am i comfortable being treated like a mother figure.


• likes : animals, creating stuff in general, desserts, fashion, performing arts, and psychological horror!

personal views . . .

if you support or tolerate anything on this list, i suggest you do not interact with me or my community, as we would probably not get along very well. i am open to civil discussion or debate for some of these topics depending on my mood.

• racism, colorism, xenophobia, islamophobia, antisemitism, and zionism. we are all human and deserve the same rights regardless of race, ethnicity, and cultural background. i am very anti-genocide and violence.


• homophobia, transphobia, and neopronoun/xenogender hate(!!!). i do not believe you need to undergo medical surgery to be trans. be who you truly are!


• misogyny/transmisogyny and sexism in general, extending to pro-life/anti-choice ideology. i am very open about women's rights as i am a woman myself. and although i believe men cannot be oppressed compared to women, i am very open to talking about how men's mental health issues and trauma often get underdiagnosed or overlooked. i do not support misandry, although i may lightly joke about it sometimes.


• ableism and anti-recovery. i believe strongly researched self diagnosis and harm reduction methods are completely valid.


• sexualization, fetishization, and romanticism of minors, LBGTQ+ identities, incest, and mental illness. lolicon is not okay, lesbians/gays in real life are not your porn categories, incest is never excusable, and symptoms of mental illness are not cute or attractive.


• use of slurs that you cannot reclaim yourself pretty self explanatory.

      to be upfront, i am professionally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses, most notably, borderline personality disorder. although i am very open to talking about my personal experiences with mental health struggles for educational purposes, please do not use that as an open door to making me your therapist, as some topics may unintentionally trigger me into an episode. i am open to listen to rants and vents about surface level problems, but if you need professional help, or are contemplating self harm or suicide, i highly suggest reaching out to mental health professionals, not me.

all smiles on the night of WGI 2025 world finals.

cleo and chompie!

cleo was adopted on september 10, 2023, one day before the anniversary of the american tragedy. chompie was adopted on february 17, 2024. cleo is a brown tabby, and chompie is a light orange tabby.

in the background of some of my videos/streams, you might have seen or heard my two other childhood cats: kitty and gaia. gaia was my white shorthair that ran away in june 2022, and kitty was my black shorthair who passed in august 2023.

more photos to be added in the future!