quotes from jennette mccurdy's 'im glad my mom died'
published april 28, 2023
this was the first book i read on my kindle when i first bought it months ago. i recently discovered that the kindle app for pc exists which lets me transfer all my notes and highlights to my laptop so im going to just dump all the excerpts and quotes i liked here for todays entry. i liked the book, by the way.
if i start to grow up, mom wont love me as much. she often weeps and holds me really tight and says she just wants me to stay small and young. it breaks my heart when he does this. i wish i could stop time. i wish i could stay a child. i feel guilty that i cant. (pg. 89)
no one else in my family seems to understand moms emotions. everyone else walks around clueless, never knowing which mom theyre going to get. but i always know. ive spent my whole life studying her so that i can always know, because i
want to do whatever i can in any given moment to keep or make mom happy. (pg. 89)
this thing looked good on the surface, but underneath it was falling apart. (pg. 180)
maybe its because i dont have space in my heart to love anyone right now while moms dying, or maybe thats on me trying to blame a genuine lack of connection on grief. grief is a great scapegoat. regardless, im discovering just how powerful of a tool it is to not love someone. loving someone is vulnerable. its sensitive. its tender. and i get lost in them. if i love someone, i start to disappear. (pg. 183)
he has no concept of loss. i feel like the world is divided into two types of people: people who know loss and people who dont. and whenver i encounter someone who
doesnt, i disregard them. (pg. 184)
we have sex for the first time and its incredible. the typical commentary that rattles through my brain during sex is nowhere to be found. the times ive had sex have
