will say that my mom was abusive and i shouldnt be defending her this much, but trust me, im not trying to defend her bad actions. she was abusive for a majority of my life, but she was (and is still) also kind, caring, and hardworking. no matter how much she has hurt me, i know where shes coming from, and i know she has never purposely meant to make me suffer out of some evil intention. life was just really difficult for her for awhile, and i happened to be caught in the crossfire of her lack of healthy coping mechanisms. but shes older now, and much wiser, and with that comes change. shes changed since i moved out. shes a better person to me now.
this is why i give people so many chances, i think. plenty of people have wronged me in so many ways, and yes, i do have the ability to cut people off at the blink of an eye depending on the situation. but most of the time i strongly believe everyone deserves an opportunity at redemption. as humans, we are constantly changing -- the person i am right now is not
the same person i will be tomorrow. life can turn around when you least expect it, and by giving people the chance to change after
theyve made a mistake, youre opening up a door into having a stronger relationship with them.
its like watching a plant or flower bloom, witnessing the twists and turns of the bud or the changing colours of the petals in wait of the final product. and when its petals begin to wither over time, its your choice to offer it a second chance at life by nurturing it with water
and care so it can thrive, or letting it die. personally i think every living thing on this world deserves to experience their potential of life to the fullest, so i would keep watering it until it naturally has to go.
its fair to note that sometimes its hard to keep up with a plants growth. sometimes life gets so busy that you forget to water it, or its roots grow so thick and convoluted that things get messy and difficult to deal with. i feel like that shouldnt be an indicator to start giving up. i think that sometimes hard work and dedication is necessary to salvage things the best you can, and in the end, it may be worth it. you end up with a beautiful plant, and the satisfaction of completing such a committed task.
this plant analogy all boils down to this: what is the purpose of my life if not to offer others a chance to enjoy theirs through forgiveness and redemption? does this make me a gullible pushover? or someone sensitive and understanding enough to know how to separate someones actions from who they really are?
